One week...

One more week and I can finally start the provera to get AF going. Once I start that I will consider the cycle officially underway. I can't wait! I am feeling so positive that this is going to work, but I am also trying not to get my hopes up. Even if it doesn't work, it will be nice just to ovulate for once! I have been thinking a lot about getting pregnant and I am so excited but I am also a bit terrified. I know that this is what I have wanted for a long time but the idea of giving birth and then parenting a child is so scary to me. I haven't always had the best luck with having good role models in my life, and I am a little scared that I won't be able to live up to my own expectations...I know that this is normal and that this will pass. I also know that I am putting the cart before the horse, so to speak, since I am not even starting to cycle, but the closer I get the more the thoughts are creeping in. By this time next month I will be anxiously awaiting my IUI. If I am neurotic now I can't even imagine how I will act then! Poor Brad...